CK: Many maskers restrict their experience of female masking to their home. It seems that you have a different, almost fearless approach to living out your alter ego. Why do you think this is?
C: I experienced the same developing curve. Hiding, exclusion, fetishist, freak—many years of hiding. The reason I changed my behaviour is because of Chrissie´s development, 100 percent. Chrissie always gets nice feedback—and not only in the fetish scene. I introduced Chrissie to my family, to my work, to my non-fetish friends. They all like it, support it and even envy me. The first time I went in public the reaction was positive again. I did it again and again, and the reaction was always positive. This helped me to develop a natural understanding of my fetish. Maybe I was lucky, but the constant positive feedback helped me create this self-evidence: Chrissie is normal. Even the stranger aspects—wearing masks, slipping into a woman’s shape, latex—were totally normal to me in the meantime.
CK: How would you describe Christian? How would you describe Chrissie?
C: Both are extraordinary, active persons. They are sociable and love to meet people.
They want to experience as much as possible—people, cultures, art, music—and they want to live a life without limits. The only difference between Chrissie and Christian is that Chrissie is sexy and naughty.
CK: You generally lead a conventional, manly life. What is your experience living with two identities? How much space does Chrissie take up in your identity and life?
C: Living a life with two identities is extremely fulfilling. If you believe in the psychological theory that every personality contains parts of both genders, you can imagine how limiting it is to live according to one biological gender. The other part must be restrained. Of course, the wish to unlock a second identity pretty much depends on the weight of the second identity in your personality. Not everybody feels the same pressure. Others have that wish but aren’t brave enough, or their social environment doesn’t allow it.
My personal assumption is that every human’s personality is a mix of genders and characteristics. In our generation, it´s normal for people to live out the personality and character that is strongest in their mix. They may sometimes show other pieces of the restrained parts, like at a carnival or fetish parties, but our society is not used to dealing with the different faces and personalities of a single person. They call it freakishness or schizophrenia, but even in psychology this is called an alter ego. Why is it not possible to talk about a mix of characteristics? I understand it is difficult to grasp because the perception is of two people, but the heart, spirit and soul are one person!
You can call this person Christian, or you can call it Chrissie. It’s not important. Both are me. I’ve learned that it is not exactly a second identity or an alter ego because Chrissie is Christian. I climbed the peak. Since I accepted that Chrissie is a part of Christian, and vice versa, I have a totally different understanding of what I’m doing. I don´t slip into a second role—I just show another part of Christian.
On average, Chrissie takes up 30 percent of my spare time, sometimes 80 percent during festivals or while I’m creating masks. Some days zero percent because of office workload.
“You can call this person Christian,
or you can call it Chrissie.
This is not important. Both of them are me.”
CK: Do you meet others in the masking community, or is it difficult?
C: Very seldom. I go to many parties, but there are only a few female maskers who go to parties, although there are many maskers on platforms and social media online. It seems only a few go out and realize their passion like I do.
CK: The masking community is usually very hidden and secretive. How did you feel when you were first approached to be part of my project?
C: The reason for the secretive female masking community is that we do something unusual, relatively unknown and, in many cases, undesired. I felt proud and happy that you selected me as a representative of the community. To me, it was a kind of compliment. But after you asked me I wondered, “If I tell you all the details and ‘secrets’ about Chrissie, I might hurt her.” It’s not because of my privacy—I was worried about Chrissie. But you and I talked a lot, and we decided to draw the curtain carefully: not showing all the details, only a few.
This is still my concern when I’m asked to support similar projects. I always worry about Chrissie. I’m pretty aware of the fact that the most interesting facet for onlookers is to see behind the curtain, but even if I (Christian) could become popular by unveiling my face, I would never do it because it would destroy Chrissie.
CK: How was your experience working together on this project? Did it live up to your expectations? Were there any surprises?
C: It was very valuable for me. We had to define the frame, but after long talks it was clear how much information we would show. Chrissie’s fans are curious to see how a latex-addicted girlie lives her life. It inspires their fantasy. Each piece of information about her background hurts Chrissie and the fantasy of the reader. My biggest surprise was that Chrissie is more precious to me than the wish to inspire other people.
CK: How do you think the masking community will develop in the future? Do you think it will become more popular and commonly accepted?
C: It will remain niche. The outfits are too expensive, and masks are even not obtainable. The entire community is small, so there’s no business potential for mask creation companies. A high-quality mask is expensive. Creating masks is very difficult—knowledge, experience and money are needed. These hurdles will remain the same.
The only difference will be that more people will go out in public. Not many, but more than today. This will create a new perception in society. People who don’t associate with the masking community but are lucky enough to meet a good looking girlie will like it and be inspired.